As some of you know, I lost my father a long time ago. The memories of everything surrounding his death are seared into my brain in such a way that I can recall even the most minute details as though they happened an hour ago. I remember what I was doing, who I was with, what the weather was like, even where and how I was standing when the phone rang with the dreadful news. I remember that the morning after my dad died I was genuinely surprised to see the sun rise in it's normal fashion, just like it does every day. How could the sun rise when such a big part of my world was gone ?
Life does indeed go on; you don't ever get to forget that on a farm, even for a minute. Cows and horses don't have voicemail and don't understand the concept of deferred pleasure. Even in your grief you can't wait a few days to feed and water them. Their needs don't change one iota even though your world may have been rocked to it's foundations. For me, the first bit of comfort I felt happened when I was in the barn tending the animals the day after my dad passed. Putting one foot in front of the other was cathartic in it's way. Melissa spoke the truth when she said that it really is a blessing to do what we do every day. Quietly tending after the horses has given her a lot of peace and comfort this past week. I hope she's taken the time to stop and reflect on things, as I did when it happened to me. On a farm, sunrise follows sunrise and tomorrow usually looks a lot like today. That too is a comfort in it's way.
As Melissa mentioned a few post's ago this blog is mostly a place where we talk about our farm, the horses and all the things that revolve around them every day. So it shall be again, beginning with our next post. I can promise that neither of us will ever forget the overwhelming amount of support that everyone has showed us during this time. Thank you so much for your kind words, notes, cards, prayers and patience.
Lotus and Romeo
Toledo and Clayton having some playtime
Kennedy hanging out in the woods
The other morning had off and on light rain showers. The horses were in the shed when it wasn't raining and out grazing when it was raining. Wiz, Dutch, Murphy, Fuzzy and Renny.
B-Rad, Alex and Darby hanging out in the woods
Lighty, Sebastian and Wiz all ignoring me as I called them to come for breakfast. They would lift their heads and look at me then go back to grazing.
another spectacular sunrise over the farm
Winston and Titan grooming
Rocky taking a nap
Maisie and Lily
Fabrizzio and Walden
Lucky and Thor